waking up

to screaming and crying

wanting to get away

i watch as my parents

scream at each other

my sisters sitting in the corner

holding their ears

i wake up to hear a loud thump

my sisters crying 

mum standing over dad

i try to scream but no sound comes out

i try to run but i cant move

the blood dripping from mum’s fingers

her tears dropping to the floor

i watch the blood

running through the tiles

mum walking to the cuboard

to pull out a gun 

she holds it firmly in her mouth

i cover my sisters eyes

i put my arms over their ears

the blood runs out of mum’s eyes

it runs out down beside her mouth

my sisters fall to the ground

police coming through the door

pulling us away

we will never forget

no matter what anyone says

things wont get better

no matter what happens

sitting in the white room

staring at the walls

waiting till i get better

i guess ill be here

forever